this is my alter ego speaking
i'm tired of life. awaiting a miracle? not sure.
they say good things will come to those with patience...(really?) but that's what i always try to convince myself and others to believe in. how can something that i'm not even sure and put to use on others? may be i need a little more faith in myself.
life has been a-ok. nothing fancy. work is hectic. try to cramp in exercise on my weekends. i swim twice a week (don't think its enough tho). no more basketball since the lebron shoes died on me ages ago :P i'm trying to get rid of my tummy. (yes, i have a flabby now, a small one that is...) u can help me by not asking me to go supper or offer me food others than breakfast, lunch and dinner...lolz (yes, i'm quite lame and u can't see my tummy doesn't mean its not there...lol)
how's the love life some might ask. its getting there...(so i try to convince no one but myself :P)
sometimes i really do think i'll walk down this life alone. will be expecting baby sister marrying before i do (soon). seeing heaps of other friends tying knots already (its no longer a taboo).
i guess life has been fair. fair in the sense that my family is doing ok. they are all healthy. i wish for nothing but to see my family happy and healthy. yes, probably i might add one more wish, to have someone walking alongside sharing every possible notions of feelings, be it good or bad (that will come in time, that's what the old n wise might add). but the question always comes to one, "when"? do u have the answer? may be she is already there. i believe there are ppl who are willing to stand alongside us. but the question now is, am i willing to open up? sadly, no. i don't open up to ppl easily.
u want my trust, u need to earn it. no easy way in (unless u can cook well, jk...that was me speaking, not my alter ego).
i try to not let my disappointments of the past overshadow my judgements...(and so i try even harder to convince this person i've been living with for the past 26 years and going).
and so i called out..."are u out there my love?" my searching soul...i'm still awaiting your returning.
reaching out for happiness (do come home soon...i do miss u dearly). every steps and breathe i take.
they say good things will come to those with patience...(really?) but that's what i always try to convince myself and others to believe in. how can something that i'm not even sure and put to use on others? may be i need a little more faith in myself.
life has been a-ok. nothing fancy. work is hectic. try to cramp in exercise on my weekends. i swim twice a week (don't think its enough tho). no more basketball since the lebron shoes died on me ages ago :P i'm trying to get rid of my tummy. (yes, i have a flabby now, a small one that is...) u can help me by not asking me to go supper or offer me food others than breakfast, lunch and dinner...lolz (yes, i'm quite lame and u can't see my tummy doesn't mean its not there...lol)
how's the love life some might ask. its getting there...(so i try to convince no one but myself :P)
sometimes i really do think i'll walk down this life alone. will be expecting baby sister marrying before i do (soon). seeing heaps of other friends tying knots already (its no longer a taboo).
i guess life has been fair. fair in the sense that my family is doing ok. they are all healthy. i wish for nothing but to see my family happy and healthy. yes, probably i might add one more wish, to have someone walking alongside sharing every possible notions of feelings, be it good or bad (that will come in time, that's what the old n wise might add). but the question always comes to one, "when"? do u have the answer? may be she is already there. i believe there are ppl who are willing to stand alongside us. but the question now is, am i willing to open up? sadly, no. i don't open up to ppl easily.
u want my trust, u need to earn it. no easy way in (unless u can cook well, jk...that was me speaking, not my alter ego).
i try to not let my disappointments of the past overshadow my judgements...(and so i try even harder to convince this person i've been living with for the past 26 years and going).
and so i called out..."are u out there my love?" my searching soul...i'm still awaiting your returning.
reaching out for happiness (do come home soon...i do miss u dearly). every steps and breathe i take.
2 Comments:
emo-nyer... hugs. you'll do fine silly bro. i guess just persevere in your pursuit of happiness =)
i think this is one of my fav posts by you. sad, funny, hopeful, and honest.
well, either way you MUST invite me to your wedding when it does happen okokokokokok?
heart sis deep deep *bear huggggsssss* hehe = )
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