24.10.06

always a part of me

how do u deal with the feeling when it never fades away. the kind that re-ignite even after so long of rainny season and icey cold winter. the kind that sucks so hard it hits u at the back of your mind unconsciously. *sigh*
being alone is unbearable. its not helping when u had to come home to an empty room.
to think of where and what to have for dinner every single day except those days when u'r out with your buddies or friends.
deep down, i know i will always love her or even more even though she pisses me off almost every single time.
we both had our love & hate moments.
i guess she moved on pretty well.
i have to start living a life. with or without her by my side.
i guess our lovely days are gone now. the only thing she left for me is a scared memory of our past.
what matters now is i need to live for myself again.
i can't bury the memories even if i try cos it always somehow resurface when i least expected.
i guess there's only one way. to embrace it with open arms. with open heart. {i tried b4 but i failed to...jia yu jia yu! i must!}
no matter what the future brings, i wish u well. always.

i wish both of us well.

5 Comments:

Anonymous maine said...

aww.. cheer up won't u? *smile* :D sometimes its better to let something that hurt go, no? better for our hearts and theirs. :)

8:16 PM  
Blogger CHiN said...

dude... I kNOW how u feel. its just a matter of time. Time can heal wounds.. tho not scars. But you will feel better in time. Later on, You'll be abel to look back and think " Its better off this way" =) cheer up dude. We go clubbing more often ok? hehehe

2:34 AM  
Blogger Nyokk said...

cal .. ganbateh okie .. cheer up ok ok .. smile smile

8:34 AM  
Blogger calvism said...

maine > u'r right! its definitely time to let go :)

chin > lose some win some uh :P r4! woot! hehe

nyokk > i'm smiling :)

7:43 PM  
Blogger Nyokk said...

bagusss .. :)

11:26 PM  

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