kimi wa hitori jyanai

this thing inside me is eating me up slowly. i can't imagine myself not working for the longest time. it's really hard. i'm not denying it. back to the basic question again, what can i do besides doing designing job. you know that feeling of crying out for help? i am in the phase of life right now. it's not like i'm suicidal or anything but feeling very 无奈. i saw somewhere that if you put 无奈 + 无奈 = very 无奈 lolz.... that's how i feel at the moment. it's quite shitty but that's how life is, isn't it? some days we get really nice rainbows, some days it rain for like nobody's business.