apparently, mother is in kl for meeting today, there i was in the morning, thinking where should i bring her after work....guess what? she's sound asleep on my bed now -______-!!! so much for worrying. but i guess its off to ikea to jalan-jalan and shop for stools tomorrow. so yeah! mother is in town.
p/s: i still having cough & flu despite feeling much better from the fever craze last week.
was checking out jason mraz site and accidentally found out that I really like this song some years back. does feel good to hear the things u love to hear again. btw, i like his polaroid collections : )
quoted this from his journal: "...I came to row my boat gently down the stream, merrily. And learn that Life is but a dream. So what about being single? I guess I’m no longer single. I am everyone. I hope this finds you well this Valentine’s Day. I appreciate not what you do. I appreciate what you are." i thought it was sweet and i wanna share this with u all. more of jason mraz here!
work has been crazy but i managed to squeeze in some time to watch tmnt yesterday nite. it was awesome, well, at least that's what i think. the CGI is super! :P go watch k...(though i get called by my friends for watching a "kiddie" movie. well, for those of u who grew up with tmnt...u know how it feels like right? kids of the 80s should know what i mean.
on a contrary...i miss home badly. the presence of my parents, my annoying sis (but i love her), home cook, the smell of new paint of the house, bumming around not doing anything but relaxing is all i need. a short break. :(
i'm tired of life. awaiting a miracle? not sure. they say good things will come to those with patience...(really?) but that's what i always try to convince myself and others to believe in. how can something that i'm not even sure and put to use on others? may be i need a little more faith in myself. life has been a-ok. nothing fancy. work is hectic. try to cramp in exercise on my weekends. i swim twice a week (don't think its enough tho). no more basketball since the lebron shoes died on me ages ago :P i'm trying to get rid of my tummy. (yes, i have a flabby now, a small one that is...) u can help me by not asking me to go supper or offer me food others than breakfast, lunch and dinner...lolz (yes, i'm quite lame and u can't see my tummy doesn't mean its not there...lol) how's the love life some might ask. its getting there...(so i try to convince no one but myself :P) sometimes i really do think i'll walk down this life alone. will be expecting baby sister marrying before i do (soon). seeing heaps of other friends tying knots already (its no longer a taboo). i guess life has been fair. fair in the sense that my family is doing ok. they are all healthy. i wish for nothing but to see my family happy and healthy. yes, probably i might add one more wish, to have someone walking alongside sharing every possible notions of feelings, be it good or bad (that will come in time, that's what the old n wise might add). but the question always comes to one, "when"? do u have the answer? may be she is already there. i believe there are ppl who are willing to stand alongside us. but the question now is, am i willing to open up? sadly, no. i don't open up to ppl easily. u want my trust, u need to earn it. no easy way in (unless u can cook well, jk...that was me speaking, not my alter ego). i try to not let my disappointments of the past overshadow my judgements...(and so i try even harder to convince this person i've been living with for the past 26 years and going). and so i called out..."are u out there my love?" my searching soul...i'm still awaiting your returning.
reaching out for happiness (do come home soon...i do miss u dearly). every steps and breathe i take.
