i received an email from dad today... attached was a scanned letter & an invite from curtin. i want to go...but why is it in miri? blardy hell -______-!!!
just got back from work...pitching job on maxis. haha...looks like its gonna be a long day again tomorrow :) work aside, last night i dreamt about u again. in my dream, u must have really missed me a lot to call me on my mobile phone. we talked like we have missed each others life for months. its funny how it turns out in reality. the moment i opened my eyes, i realised it was just a dream, merely. its funny how i thought u must have missed me heaps but the fact i am the one who missed u more by dreaming of u every now and then. sometimes i question myself why i still think and dream of u when the fact that i know very sure u had let me down once too many times. maybe i let myself down. they say life goes on, i am moving on. with or without u. i'm doing quite fine and i meant to keep it that way for as long as i can. u need not worry about me because the day u left was the day u took away half of my dreams and hopes. that said, i'm doing just fine. as weird as it seems, i do miss your selfish ways at times which reminds me of how we were and it acts as a defense mechanism to not let u in again and also because u never did believe in me. key word - trust. there was lack of trust in us. sometimes i do think to myself, if we ever meet on the street one day, will i ever look u in the eyes and greet u or just walk on by like we have never cross each other's path? life is nothing but a mystery to unfold.
someone told me life is good when you appreciate simple pleasures with life. but life isn't that simple, is it? or its just me.
the title of the song is "kevin is a playboy". its a catchy song and has nice tune to it. albeit cynical and funny at the same time. i guess sometimes life is like that too
p/s: i watched 300 on sunday. it was goooooooooooooooooooooood!!! just go watch, don't ask!
you'll know you're not invisible when someone sees you
is it just me or i'm being too sensitive to my surrounding? i was trying to get the pursuit of happyness at one utama just now but the earliest show will only come on at 10pm...so i didn't wanna wait. i headed back home right away. while walking back to the carpark, i noticed heaps of lovey dovey couples walking sticking to one another like uhu glue...its like 90% of the ppl there are couples. hmm... part of me actually wanted to be in that category. part of me actually wanted to be sticked. or even wondering how it feels like to be glued close to one another like uhu :P hehe maybe its the peer pressure that makes the singles like me feeling left out. we shouldn't be. to be honest, there are heaps of singles out there and should not feel too conscious because some of us just want to be free and enjoy being singles.
but in my case, i'm really longing to have someone to call my love...someone to cuddle with...but i guess its really up to fate and a lil push of luck here and there. i remember some time ago, while back in my hometown, there's this lady whose friend of my relative came to me and ask if i'm single...*kononnya, i was caught washing dishes and helping out in the kitchen during cny. i think she wanted to match make me with her daughter....keep asking about my details and personal stuff. i was like ooookay...hahah seriously, on another note, most of my friends are married or getting married soon...i'm like the only one in my group that is still (sorry to say) pathetically single. hahahah part of me feels that i'm old and my age is really catching up with me. i want to have a family of my own cos each wedding dinner i attend makes me feels like this old man has gotta make some moves before he runs out of love...literally.
p/s: eh, can u ppl wait for me...don't la one getting married after another. like ada pakat like that...lolz :P
